Black Daria's Friday Night Videos (on Saturday): Mario's Co-dependency Anthem

I can't front, I love this song...but seriously, isn't this shit the anthem for co-dependent relationships?

Gucci,
Black Daria *wink*

P.S. HUSTLERS yell Gucci, but they'll probably never be able to buy it for you, let alone own a a car to drive you anywhere...you'll always be driving.

There's always an excuse...

Hmmm...so let's see here:

1. She (obviously crack is one of her many problems that some blogs have touched upon) was going to go shoot a film scene, and get a burger and a few bucks.

2. He's not a pimp, he's a HUSTLER. He HUSTLES. *wink*

3. A long time ago, I once read where a music executive said he doesn't hustle, because it gets you nowhere.

Other notable mentions:

4. Names of crackheads that have been through the hood include Ike Turner (RIP) Robert Downey Jr., A Pointer Sister (cause I was about to say do not talk about Auntie Patty), etc.

I'll leave with this. You don't have to necessarily be a crackhead who's unfortunately bi-polar to be in a situation like this, and you also can choose to believe what you wish. A HUSTLER will always be a HUSTLER.

xoxo,
Black Daria

Bitchasses at work: The 3rd (right?) Maia Campbell video...

Now while this didn't happen to me, DON'T let this happen to you...it's quite bitchass of these dudes (and I think I heard a female other than Maia at one point). And there are some female bitchasses out there...we will get to that soon...

By the way, she, at one time, was a rising starlet.

xoxo,

Black Daria ;/

About a bitchass...

I've neglected a topic far too long...I've tried to protect those who I thought may be innocent, but today I learned that there's just no protecting a bitchass.


Here is my story.

We met over 8 years ago...according to him, he remembers the first time we met, and he instantly knew he was smitten with me. Of course, I didn't notice...a huge problem at the time was he had a girlfriend, and that wasn't the territory I played in...so I stayed away, and our paths crossed again a few years later...but this time, I decided things were different. I didn't want a boyfriend, so his "situation" (his words) at that time didn't matter to me. READ: I DECIDED.

So despite a few shortcomings (OK to laugh, I do now as I look back), I believed him. Everything. He was supposedly leaving his girl and two children soon...it had an "expiration date." Those were the words he used to describe the "situation." Said he got "caught up" and didn't think she was the one, but doesn't want to leave her with the kids. I was ready to start my business, and his help turned into love...and then it officially got ugly.

It started with the night before Thanksgiving...at the time, I thought he was really into me, not realizing I was an escape from his problems. After another all nighter in my car, I got to Queens, with the lovely smell of cooking in the air, but was too tired to help, as I'd been up all night. Wasn't asleep even 10 minutes when I get a text from him...apparently he "slipped", left his phone open, and she read my last text to him.

Next came an email from her. I wasn't nervous, but I knew it wasn't good...all it said was "I am so happy to hear you are in love with him, you can have him!!" This was followed by a phone call to my mother the next day (yes, the babies' mother called MY mom), to inform her that I was fucking the father of her children...yes, she called MY mom in case you missed that...fun times. By the way, we were all well over the ages of 21.

So what did I do next? What every stupid girl who thinks someone loves them does...kept believing what HE said. READ: WHAT HE SAID.

After another year of this, I knew things were probably not going to change, but I admit, I was pretty lost. I did a lot of things to fill the time, made some more mistakes, and eventually left the situation. It was no good for anyone involved.

But then he called again. I'd been in another relationship and I had certainly changed.

Unfortunately he hadn't.

I think it was in some of the pages I made it through in Steve Harvey's book (people were beginning to think I was anorexic because I barfed after each chapter, so I didn't read the whole thing) where he talked about what men do when they cheat, and he said they will drop the person's name to you and act as if things are friendly.


When the incident Steve described happened this past May, even I couldn't have written the next chapter of this book.

Enter Facebook. Fucking Facebook. If I didn't have it, then my other friend and I probably wouldn't be speaking today. I don't always read my notes because I get inundated with over a million, but here comes a note, and it's contents were not expected.

The name was dropped again, but this time, they were now in a relationship. She thought it had been the reason I didn't reach out to her in a few months. I instantly remembered the email he'd just sent last week where he emailed her picture in one of his famous blasts. What I didn't know last week is she thought she was in a relationship too, and had started to tell her friends, including our mutual friend. She decided to tell both of us, because she thought we should know the truth.


Funny, because we had a sex date planned the day after her "guest bartending" event, which was what the email was in regards to when it was sent. She probably doesn't know that, but she will know now. Even more interesting was I met this young woman a month before he did, as she was interested in having someone represent her...her first comment was "I can't fuck with dudes in this business, they are always trying to fuck me," and other catch phrases.

I just didn't think it would be...him.


It was a surprise when I got that email with the same girl he was "just friends" with, because I thought, that can't be the same girl. The bitchass dude even lied to me and said it wasn't her before I learned he was fucking the "rising starlet", but as soon as I went back to my email to read her bullshit bio, I knew it was her, which prompted me to call him to ask him if there was something he wanted to tell me. No response, so I then asked him flat out "Are you fucking her?" to which he replied a sad ass "Yes, we have..." followed by, "But it's not like that."


Is it ever "like that?"

Many women today usually believe when they are fucking a man, they are in a relationship, so that must have been where she was in the whole "situation" I presume. I used to make that mistake until I learned what the difference was, so when we started dealing with each other again, I knew our meetings were sex dates. I'd almost feel sorry for her if I hadn't met this whore; but to add insult to injury, the friend who told me about this new relationship had warned this "starlet," who couldn't even get a secondary role on Harlem Heights (I remembered that detail from one of my phone conversations with her), about this dude...the ones she tried to avoid in her "career."


Did I, Black Daria, ever think I was in a relationship at this point or any? No, and I know why.


I actually thought this time around, being an honest friend would help, but I realized just from that one note I got on Facebook that people will be who they are...and in this case, this man-child is a straight bitchass. READ: MAN-CHILD. Plus, he's still involved with the baby's mother, so really, how could I ever think this guy was my boyfriend, let alone think I was in a relationship.


I have my wrongs...I could have used some more self-esteem, stuck to my guns on dealing with men who haven't quite ended another relationship...but this time, I tried to actually be a friend first...it just now ends up where we will never be friends again.


People may say I was wrong for dealing with a man with children, but after the age of 25, the chances of meeting a man without children are slim. However, I learned that being alone is far better than being with someone who has NO ONE's interest at heart except their own.

Trust me, I'm just as much of a fool, and I know this...I just thought out of a lot of girls out there, it wouldn't actually be one who approached me for business help to go and fuck a dude I knew and worked with at one time...let alone the bitchass knew I had been talking to her about work, but still fucked her with no regard for my feelings. There's a lot more to the story, but I think this is enough for now.


I have to remember the mistakes I made, but I wanted to take a minute to tell some folks about some things I've realized:


1. Usually, when your friend tells you a guy is a dog or "man-whore", it's usually true. You should probably listen. I didn't.


2. You should never fuck your clients. I can proudly say I've never fucked a client, but I've definitely mixed business with pleasure...however, I don't advise it.


3. When you meet a bitchass who is living with the mother of his children (wonder if the starlet knew that he still lived with her and his two children, oops), keep in mind that these men can be very creative. At the present moment, the "expiration date" turned into "we just make a show for HER friends, but we know we aren't a couple." I knew it was bullshit, but I also knew what we had was NOT a relationship. I guess that's what I would say too when I know I don't even have $50 to get a room of my own, let alone an apartment, because I am a lame ass who lives off of other women's finances.


4. If you always find yourself coming out of pocket, especially when he needs paypal money sent to him so he can probably get a bottle of Hennessy when he gets out of jail, he's probably not that into you.


5. My very good male friend told me a long time ago, "BD, if he's living with his baby's mother, they definitely still fuck." Always remember this if you ever deal with a man who lives with the mother of his children; if he tells you otherwise, he's a liar.

I assume this is what happens when you fall for the wrong one.

I am proud I got to my own gossip first. I think this shit is certainly deeper than Amber Rose's breasts. To all the ladies who think that you can't do better, know that you can do a lot better than a 34 year-old promoter who thinks being a man-whore is everything, and worth more than his own family. If he'd treat his baby mother with no respect, then it's likely he will never respect you, especially when he has no respect for himself.


I'm done...onto the next chapter. As of today, I say goodbye to this bitchass, knowing that although I may not be a pretty model, I am me, and someone will see that it's more than enough for them...plus Chuck Bass (new season of Gossip Girl starts 9/14) is back in town...Black Daria has some options.

xoxo,
Black Daria ;/


P.S. Please feel free to forward this to all baby mothers and rising starlets. Thanks.

Missing Aaliyah :(

Such a pretty face, with a spirit that matched. Never met her, but remembering the show Biorhythm on MTV back in 2001, and the music to the story of her life that led up to her final journey and eventual homegoing on August 25...it still bothers me. For many reasons...I think it was because she was my age, and I felt the loss hard. I woke up on the morning of her funeral and began to cry...in tears. My boyfriend at the time consoled me, probably thinking he was going to leave my ass by at least October, but I knew in my heart that this just wasn't right. It wasn't supposed to happen like this.

And then September 11 happened...a day none of us forget who lived in NYC...and pretty soon, we approached Aaliyah's first birthday that wouldn't be shared with us that January, and soon after, Damon Dash met Rachel Roy...the rest, they say, is just history.

To her family and particularly her brother Rashad, whom I always remember her bring up in just about any interview, was a testiment to her love for her family...and that just made it worse.

Some may say she wasn't the best singer, but it wasn't about that to me. She grew up in front of us without the scandals that maybe if blogs existed in the nature they do today, would have been another one of those girls...maybe Aaliyah's death saved her from that particular type of life no celebrity enjoys living...they still try to live off of her marriage to R. Kelly...would she have been as graceful 8 years later if a blogger told the story?

All I know is Aaliyah's death that Sunday woke me up from the life as I knew it...changed my way of thinking for a couple of weeks.

Can't believe it's been 8 years. RIP Aaliyah.




xoxo,
Black Daria

Why you can't talk about certain shit...

*Editor's note, 8/19/09: got a tad wordy, so there's a slight grammatical change...on with the show*

It gets you shot. Even killed.


Sam Ferguson, of Don Diva Miami was driving down a Florida Turnpike on Friday afternoon (9/14) when he was shot by an unknown assailant/s. No information on the shooters besides a black car and clear headlights.

You can chat amongst yourselves, but just for reference, this is the man who thought everyone should know that at one time, Rick Ross was a Correctional Officer. Just to refresh your memories. He was also friends with Miami City Commissioner Art Teele...who killed himself in the lobby of the Miami Herald in 2006. Was also a staple in the Miami Rap scene, long before 2 Live Crew were a crew and such...

The stories:
Hip Hop Wired
NBC Miami

I always think it's funny when someone says there were no witnesses in these types of cases...who the fuck wants to get shot? That's why I'm actually going to end this post now.

xoxo,
Black Daria ;/

I was about to...

...go on a hiatus. I was kinda pissed about the Black Weblog Awards (mainly at myself, followed by calling them a bunch of LOSERS WITH A FUCKED UP SYSTEM), followed by a lot of BS going on both in my personal and work life. Then I realized I kinda already did go on a hiatus, so now I guess was the first day I actually said it out loud.

But I sat on the train (yeah, the #1 train) realizing I have so much to talk about, just by looking through my camera pics. I've done a lot, but I've gotten so caught up in my daily job, my blog has become awfully quieter than it's original intent.

That said, a while back I challenged myself to a 7-day blog post challenge. I think I made it two posts on the first day...then nothing. I guess I need to take baby steps with this...I also blame the celebrities, who go on a hiatus from being assholes, then all start acting up at the same time. And some of it just isn't worth a blog post to me, but I also must realize that you, my 15 followers, along with those who'd like to rather not say they read my blog, care about these things. So I should say something about them. The going-ons...stuff.

I've also had this fear of being brutally honest, (seriously) I mean, once it's out there on the Internets, it's everywhere. Remember, I want to be a CEO, I don't need this shit haunting me...but then again, it's my journey. I doubt I will be the same person I am now at 40, because I damn sure am not the girl I was at 20. By then, I should have enough props to be a proper CEO.

Until then...time to really meet Black Daria. It's time for some feelings to get hurt, including my own...so here we go...

I thought you should know about this debacle, as I find it to be amusing...Amber Rose pics came flying up last week because someone out there in the media decided we should see breasts at least once a month, and definitely a naked body should circulate to keep our mind off the fact that some kids in the US can't read.

Amber was available for the task, then, BOOM...someone goes into an archive and pulls out Grace Jones:

Amber Rose

Grace Jones

Amber Rose

Grace Jones

After seeing this on Gossip Jacker, a site I am slowly becoming addicted to, I laughed because isn't it just...funny? Got some questions though....

1. There's nothing wrong with paying homage to someone who came before you and defy odds of some sort. Amber's trip towards stardom certainly must have equated Grace Jones rise to stardom...oh yes, totally.

2. Who took the Complex Pictures? Was the point to jack Grace Jones looks because that's who she's been put up against? Is it the bald head?

3. If this were America's Next Top Model, who would Tyra pick to win this right now? Seriously, think about if these pictures were up on the screen next to each other...you know how Tyra and her crew would have done this deliberation...

Ok, enough of my questions...what are your thoughts? Amber Rose doesn't really care, BTW, she says so everytime Mediatakeout talks about her...just thought you should know, and how I know is because I follow her on Twitter...hey, she just might say something stupid, and I may be able to catch it...or something.

Go on...discuss. If you want to see more of these fabulous pictures, please visit my friends here. I jacked them, so I owe them. That's how this works, or so they say.

xoxo,

Black Daria ;/